Thank You, Mr. Anxiety

Why do you attack when I am most vulnerable?

Why do you find all my cracks and pulverize me at those exact spots?

Why do you invade my brain and capture my heart?

I cannot get away from you.

I cannot get away from you Mr. Anxiety.

Too often you consume me.

Too often

But I surround myself with the one who can do all things

I pray

and I can feel Mr. Anxiety slowly shrink away.

I listen to music inspired by you

and their Christian words calm me.

Britt Nicole’s lyrics hit me,

“How many years did You plan this moment here/To show me how You love me”

In my harshest, overwhelming, hurting moments is when you are the most real to me

You are with me all day long

when I walk the halls praying

when I stare out the window at your creation

when I talk about You to my friends

every moment

But my prayers are the most real and vulnerable when I am

The words need to get out

and your wisdom needs to come in

So Mr. Anxiety,

Why do you attack when I am most vulnerable?

Why do you find all my cracks and pulverize me at those exact spots?

Why do you invade my brain and capture my heart?

Thank you

You attack when I am most vulnerable so that God can rescue me

You find all my cracks so that my Almighty Lord can reinforce them

You invade my brain and capture my heart so that my Father can show me his power

Thank you

all you messy emotions for showing me the Prince of Peace’s power.

“How many years did You plan this moment here/To show me how You love me”

 

 

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