So the SAT is tomorrow.
I have been preparing my whole life for this 5 hour test
But I have been studying everyday since February
At least 30 practice questions a night,
hours and hours on Khan Academy,
countless SAT study sessions staying after school,
over 500 flashcards that my English teacher gave me (love you Ms. Tabone!),
poured over a 850+ page textbook,
practice test after practice test after practice test.
I mean what better to do than grammar questions at 2 AM?
I know that I am prepared,
I don’t feel prepared.
So I study to convince myself
I take every advantage I can
just so that I can feel safe.
I know that I am a little strange
for spending ten minutes debating what pencils to buy to use on the SAT
(eraser, price, strength, where it was made, pre-sharpened, how it smells)
but I do these things to feel secure.
In my brain,
I know that I am ready,
but I want to feel it in my soul.
So I have 4 new batteries in my calculator,
5 sharpened pencils
1 calm heart.