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Failed Rescue ~ Part 2

It has been 121 days

since I have given up.

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I’m going crazy.

All the death

it’s still happening

and it’s still my fault

which means it becomes my responsibility

again.

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I never truly realized how many lives I saved

only how many I didn’t save.

***

I wonder

would their lives continued on

if I had continued on

121 days ago?

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But then my mind begins to play

the devil’s advocate,

and whispers echo in my ears,

what if I had never started?

Would there have been as many terrors to

my city?

***

What if I don’t use my powers

for good or bad,

I just don’t use them.

***

Then they are not a gift or a curse,

only locked away in a box

and I threw away the key.

***

The key was confidence,

and confidence got them killed.

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Now I fear I can do nothing.

I can’t move forward

with this new and only one life

that the man behind the mask

chose for me.

***

I can’t go back to my old life

before the responsibility,

before the deaths.

***

But no matter what I do

they keep on building

the deaths keep on building.

Whether I’m the man or the mask

death keeps knocking.

***

I have the potential for good

or death.

I had once thought that I had the potential

for greatness.

***

Now have the potential

to do nothing.

***

Death keeps on knocking

at the box.

I need the key,

but I don’t want it.

***

How can I pick up

the weapon that killed you

and know that it might happen all over again.

***

I am a murder,

yet am I still a hero?

If I don’t pick up the murder weapon

I’ll only be a killer.

***

If I pick up the murder weapon

I could save more lives

and possibly kill more.

***

But I am killing countless people in my inaction.

I could even the scales

or tip them even more.

***

I am going crazy with all the death

I’m causing by doing nothing.

***

I will take action,

I will be a hero,

I will save lives

and in the process

I may kill some more.

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But it will be worth it

?

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Failed Rescue ~ Part 1

I could have saved you

A phrase of

regret

if onlys

helplessness in power

I have all this power . . .

but death has more

***

What am I fighting for?

If I can’t save you

do I even deserve this mask?

A mask of

honor

protectship

heroics.

shame & failed rescue

If only I had more

time

strength

resources

speed

experience

courage

intellent

***

But none of that matters

in the face of failure.

Only the person to blame does

***

not the villain

but the Super

who didn’t swoop in to make the catch.

me

***

You’re dead

because

I failed

***

This mask

this crusade

this symbol

this power

this choice

this life

means nothing.

Because I still couldn’t save you

***

If I give it up

being a hero

at least I won’t have any other

deaths on my hands,

only the past ones and yours.

***

I have a responsibility

which is why I have given up,

because I caused your death.

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The nameless faces beneath the other falling building

that I could have saved but I was holding up this one.

***

The screams for help echoing in my ears

as I know they’ll lead to death

while I carry the children out

***

In my quest for vengeance

for the innocent lives lost,

you fell because of the collateral damage

that I caused, fell on you

***

I killed you

***

My recklessness killed you

I could have saved you

***

I did saved you, but instead my rescue killed you

***

All my responsibility

All my power

All this death I’ve caused

Shall be no more

I have given up

I have failed for the last time

gwendead