It first starts in my chest
this energy
that I wish was foreign
Sometimes the pain is
an ache,
an emptiness,
or a physical tangible feeling
that you can hold.
The energy spreads from that place between
my heart and lungs
to my limbs.
Fingers shaking,
toes curled.
Constantly aware
of everything
inside of me.
All this happens
before my mind
even acknowledges what is happening.
Fear.
