It’s like I have an ON and Off button
Either I am full on and it just comes to me
Or I don’t feel like creating a single string of words
When I read I have no motivation to write whatsoever
Yes, I know that it is the opposite for most people
but I know the characters
I study the writer’s style
And creating my own words do not seem appealing to me
When I read a novel,
it’s like a forced writer’s block
But when I only write
I forgo all the exhilarating people
living in the pages tightly shoved on my bookshelf.
I started a book
and now reading is the only thing I want to do.
Not because it is so good
(which it is, I love the writing style!)
but because I have prolonged my thirst
for a person’s life played out in a few hundred pages
I look at the world and my thoughts around me
and have an urge to make sense of them
through words artfully created
But when my eyes absorb the words
of thoughts and emotions of characters
I look to them
and not my own
leaving me to have no need to sort through them.
Oh, the joys of books
but the heartbreaks of not writing!
It’s like I have an ON and Off button
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