Monthly Archives: July 2015

Impact Hits Metal

Impact hits metal.

Metal gives way.

Or

Metal stays exactly the same.

Or

Metal dents

but is stronger at those points.

Which is Resilient?

Which has mettle?

What is your impact?

On others

On the world

Both good and bad.

Your impact can bend someone

to either side.

The mettle of metal

and the impact of its impact

 FeeBeeDee / Foter / CC BY

FeeBeeDee / Foter / CC BY

Failed Rescue ~ Part 2

It has been 121 days

since I have given up.

***

I’m going crazy.

All the death

it’s still happening

and it’s still my fault

which means it becomes my responsibility

again.

***

I never truly realized how many lives I saved

only how many I didn’t save.

***

I wonder

would their lives continued on

if I had continued on

121 days ago?

***

But then my mind begins to play

the devil’s advocate,

and whispers echo in my ears,

what if I had never started?

Would there have been as many terrors to

my city?

***

What if I don’t use my powers

for good or bad,

I just don’t use them.

***

Then they are not a gift or a curse,

only locked away in a box

and I threw away the key.

***

The key was confidence,

and confidence got them killed.

***

Now I fear I can do nothing.

I can’t move forward

with this new and only one life

that the man behind the mask

chose for me.

***

I can’t go back to my old life

before the responsibility,

before the deaths.

***

But no matter what I do

they keep on building

the deaths keep on building.

Whether I’m the man or the mask

death keeps knocking.

***

I have the potential for good

or death.

I had once thought that I had the potential

for greatness.

***

Now have the potential

to do nothing.

***

Death keeps on knocking

at the box.

I need the key,

but I don’t want it.

***

How can I pick up

the weapon that killed you

and know that it might happen all over again.

***

I am a murder,

yet am I still a hero?

If I don’t pick up the murder weapon

I’ll only be a killer.

***

If I pick up the murder weapon

I could save more lives

and possibly kill more.

***

But I am killing countless people in my inaction.

I could even the scales

or tip them even more.

***

I am going crazy with all the death

I’m causing by doing nothing.

***

I will take action,

I will be a hero,

I will save lives

and in the process

I may kill some more.

***

But it will be worth it

?

Failed Rescue ~ Part 1

I could have saved you

A phrase of

regret

if onlys

helplessness in power

I have all this power . . .

but death has more

***

What am I fighting for?

If I can’t save you

do I even deserve this mask?

A mask of

honor

protectship

heroics.

shame & failed rescue

If only I had more

time

strength

resources

speed

experience

courage

intellent

***

But none of that matters

in the face of failure.

Only the person to blame does

***

not the villain

but the Super

who didn’t swoop in to make the catch.

me

***

You’re dead

because

I failed

***

This mask

this crusade

this symbol

this power

this choice

this life

means nothing.

Because I still couldn’t save you

***

If I give it up

being a hero

at least I won’t have any other

deaths on my hands,

only the past ones and yours.

***

I have a responsibility

which is why I have given up,

because I caused your death.

***

The nameless faces beneath the other falling building

that I could have saved but I was holding up this one.

***

The screams for help echoing in my ears

as I know they’ll lead to death

while I carry the children out

***

In my quest for vengeance

for the innocent lives lost,

you fell because of the collateral damage

that I caused, fell on you

***

I killed you

***

My recklessness killed you

I could have saved you

***

I did saved you, but instead my rescue killed you

***

All my responsibility

All my power

All this death I’ve caused

Shall be no more

I have given up

I have failed for the last time

gwendead

I’m Missing . . . But

“I’m not lonely”

But you are alone

“Although, I’m not complete either”

But does that make you incomplete?

“I just feel like I’m missing something”

But you now have what everyone else in the world always has

“It’s not an ache or pain, but physically it feels like I’m not right”

But then are you Psychosomatic?

 “I don’t know what to do with myself”

But you keep on doing something

“I don’t like feeling this way”

That’s understandable

 smkybear / Foter / CC BY-SA

smkybear / Foter / CC BY-SA

Thriver

To stand the test of time

Not losing track of what is important

Being strong

and brave

and having determination

and having courage

and to persevere

To not be walked over

but not to walk on others

When

not if

troubles arise

using them to move forward

Ever and always moving forward

Knowing when to start

and maybe more importantly

when to stop

and when to push on

Knowing the goal

and having faith that it’s the right one

Pushing past the problems

but learning from them

To not be a victim

To be more than a survivor

To be Resilient

Don’t Miss Out on the Fireworks

You have to look past the mosquito to see the fireworks.

Your swatting at all the mosquitoes from taking a bite out of you

you miss the fireworks.

You focus on the little petty things of life

you miss the amazing and happy experiences of life

You are focused on the tiny problem right in front of you

and not the whole night sky lite up by joy

Your surrounded by family oohhhh and aaahhh

soaking up the beauty

and your swatting away the takers of joy

but when you are doing this

You are taking away your own joy.

Foter / CC BY-SA

Foter / CC BY-SA