If you could turn back the clock,
If you could jump in a time machine,
If you could change your path
Would you stop the pain, the memories, the weight?
I would not ease and erase my pain of yesterday and the day before and before . . .
Would I change my course that the actions of others set me on
that had me ‘wake up one day’ and ask myself how can I ever _________?
Fill in the blank
The path where I look below the surface – my surface, below my heart, below my dreams, below my fears
and find a broken soul.
Actions, choices, fears, memories, weight, life
have chipped away at my soul
and have broken it.
And have lost it.
Do I want my naive-to-the-darkness-of-the-world self back?
Do I miss my innocence, my carefreeness, my lighter self?
With all the weight of memories and choices
I have become stronger
and to go back to weakness?
If you asked me a year ago, if I would turn back the clock and erase this path, would I?
In a heart beat.
I am stronger and I don’t and won’t let it go for an easier path.
My soul is broken and chipped
but now down to its truth, its strength
the real me.
My soul is broken because all that others have put on it is now no more.
It is broken down to just me.
My strength, my dreams, my fears, my choices, my darkness, and my light.
My soul is broken and lost.
Lost in Christ.
I can’t find that carefree girl anymore.
And don’t want her.
This is me
Broken and lost
Is your darker path your better path?